I feel very bad

March 1
What the fuck am i doing ytd OMG!!!! Haiz i think i make a big mistake ytd and now have to face it wat a pain.... After work went to Pub 678 there wif my colleague to celebrate my master last day hurrrr.... They all like siao like tat lor hahax sing song not nice had to drink 3cup of beer wah, after tat have a chat wif Manager Roy.... Roy say alot of thing to me, and chat about re-service thing hahax He also from police de nehx hahax, world so small lor.... celebrate until 3+ then all go home le, reach home chat wif GW.... Haiz after tat jiu go slp le =(
Haiz i wonder what u all thinking nehx...but i think i'm the 1 who feel bad about this, i should don care and see how u all doing. Hope both of you rest more and think about it.....If both of you love each other... you all should give and take mahx.

yawn

Feb 27
Second day of work, quite busy today and boss keep standing in front of the bar make me feel so stress nor... after awhile hack care le lahx i do my own thing at least not making any mistake jiu can le lor =) After tat jiu msg xiao gui awhile den jiu work all the way till closing yawn... I din drink much today coz got ride bike wor... Now reach home le, think blog finish jiu go slp tml is master last day le. Cannot keep rely on him but i still got alot of thing duno wor.... don left alot of unfinish job gif me nehx =)
Wish you and your bf happy as always wor, you had grown up le not small girl anymore le okay.... Feel like crying can tell me de, i will always be your listener and concentre on your study don't fail again le ah.
Just heard you say today jiu see the photo liao hahax so loving nehx... Hope he is your Mr Right wor... although i know you are fine. I should be happy and forget but Duno y still got the feeling tat haven fade away. I think soon will be fade le bahx =) Happy after all =)

First day of work

Feb 25 Happy
Today is mine first day of work although abit tired but have alot of fun there although need to drink alot but it okay lahx i use to it le =)... after working everyone went to RCD hahax.... It being a long time le, i think i nv be go down for quite a few month le bahx =) Reach RCD alot of ppl still rmb me it realli bring back memories heee. At there drink alot although not drunk or high but sure ride bike kana caught by police so prevent it... i take wei zhi car back nehx =) Today i feel very happy, somehow bottom of my heart realli feel the happiness.... Until 2 plus i wnet back home le and blog later going slp soon yawn tml need to work too =)
So glad happen to see you are alright, wish u a happy new year.... i think u have forgive me le bahx!!! Tat's y u tap me and tok to me =) In the bottom of my heart u realli something special, although today cannot support you next time i will. Rmb to take care of urself okay =) don't everytime get drunk it's hurt ur health and very dangerous okay!!! =( Don't becoz of fun den do that hao mahx haiz.... One day i hope to have the miracles =) I feel very happy to see you again... the way u tok and smile.

Good Bye

Feb 26 Working
Today is my first day of work =) i will be very busy after all. hmm wonder this job got off anot yawn =) Guys take care of urself wor..... Bye bye

Someone TGT le

Feb 24 Something special
Today is meeting xiao gui out for movie, it will be the last time i meeting her, i will be busy after this month. Watch True legend wif her hahax, she so good she bao me for the day =) movie ticket and drink hahax so good =).... While watching GW msg me hahax den i send something tat he teach me LOL... hmmm xiao gui told me abt GW and her relationship, hmm i can say is congratz. GW my job is done, the rest is up to you le i cannot help u take care of her all the time. I got my own stuff to do heeex. After movie i went to play jubeat wif desmond, sammi, GW and xiao gui. Yawns keep fail the same song evans. Finish playing go back home wah how come no one at home so quiet so decide to go tua =) see. So tua is holding big event and decide to display at newspaper OMG abit kua zhang lor. Still need to take photo of those Impt memeber and they ask me to take Nabei.... I seldom come down lor ask me for wat haiz =( at the end hold a meeting until 12am++ den jiu go home, Yawn so tired Think of heading to slp le =)
看到你快乐我就很满足了。我会某某的祝福你，希望你能快乐！！！

Counting down

Feb 25 Yawn
Left 2 day to working time =( wonder how thing will be done at there =) hope there's no conflict hee

Interview

Feb 22
Today slping all the way till night and keep disturb by derek.... yawn so tired lor hmm after tat jiu went to interview at pub 51 for bartender job =) hehex is like my dream lor... from young i hope to become a bartender noe got the chance le hehex hopefully the job not very tough bahx.. I left 3days to play le bye guys!!!!

Friendship

Feb 22 Friendship
Happen to read an article today and simply find it interesting. It's say something about friendship and the way the author write it is the same way of how i treated friend as. A friend cannot never be weight! When the world walk away from you, friend will walk in. True friend know u well and never neglect u =) this is what i think in friendship.

Yawn so tired

Feb 19
Yawn so slpy lately, go sing K wif xiao gui and her fren... after tat GW came and den sing until 7+ jiu went to amk to eat, GW treat me eat nehx so good but he keep complain say he everytime treat me eat =(... after tat chit chat wif GW under my house den jiu went home and slp le..............

Woodlands

Feb 18
Today went out with sammi for breakfast at 401 coffee shop and wait for desmond to join us after our breakfast around 3+ went to woodlands meet xiao gui for movie =) hehex. We watch Little Big solider quite funny de show wor =) After everything went to starbucks to have mine favourite Mocha blended and Newyork cheese cake =). Chit chat awhile at there and send xiao gui go home, say is send her home lahx actually is go there take my bike coz GW park at there KNS lor. At the end home sweet home loh. Reach home jiu fall a slp at sofa le... until got 1 spider climb across me and derek catch it hahax.

Restart

Feb 17
Today did not slp for the whole day yawn... go watch movie wif sammi, percy jackson the lightning theif. But i fall a slp at some part, is not the show problem is i did not slp for a day and the air-con is too good le let me fall a slp hahax. This past few months wrote alot of unhappy stuff, I still cannot let go, but it aready end y still bother so much. Just leave it as a beautiful mistake and go thru it. I want to be who i am and stop being childish anymore. Wat gone is gone. wat mine is mine.
Life is like a stage, you got your entrance, your role and your exit.

Should look forward

Feb 16
This 2 month i been thru is such a ridiculous life. I everytime think of going back to the past, but there is no such thing call back to the past. I should learn from the past and motivate me for the future. Have a conversation wif Vincent b4 regarding about the past. It seen like everything has change... It being so long aready 3years + and i tot i have grown up. It seen like not, Onli the surrounding has change except me. Still the same so tian zhen, never think abt the future, like to 1day past 1day. Even xiao gui think better den me =( so shag... I should try to face the fact and look foward in the future and don think back. It aready a history, wat lost is lost.
Don't wait for miracles , should try to make miracles. Don't wait for chance and create more chances!

Bored

Feb 15
2nd day of chinese new year yawn. Nothing to do stay at home rot!!! In the evening had steamboat wif melvin and his gf =) so good of them noe that i lonely still come and pei me heee,
Desmond and sammi oso came heee. Chit chat until 2am yawn. Shld start target for my dream. Photo bring backs memory with you YINGZ

Chinese New Year

Feb 14 Bored
This Year new year is the most sian New year i ever had b4 the house look so empty. Until evening went to uncle hse celebrate new year, they ask me alot of question make me like a idiot, I duno how to reply hahahax, Every relative say i change alot le seen the last event we met. Is not i change. It just tat i wan prevent for ppl asking me question. That y i keep quiet, After dinner had a small gambling game at there. But i did not play onli share the money. After everything went to watch 72 Tenant @ PS den jiu go Home le =) BTW thx for the camera man tat pass me the photo. Plus sry i cannot ans the question =)

Photo @ Cousin wedding

Having Steamboat

Feb 12 Night
Yeah finally have our steamboat dinner wif all the Bros and sis =) we buy around $80 of food lor hahax. Scare not eunff at the end oso cannot finish left over so many yawn... The whole steamboat session is like toking all the way den eating lor hahax. After steamboat watch TV and den jiu go Xiao gui hse play mahjong hahax everyone lose to her is like gifing her ang bao like tis KNS lor =) I think tat for today le i still nid to go work nehx in the morning and i blogging at tis moment yawn Now aready 6am le hahax =)

Wish

Feb 12 Wish
Ytd night having a big reunion for CNY, alot of ppl is go for the Banquet yawns. Happen to saw RCD regular customer at there hahax =) But did not go tok to them. After everything went back home have a big spring cleaning and shifting of furniture. Hope will change the house feng shui LOL. Finally a year going to past, is counting down le. I really learn alot of thing in this OX year. Learn to be indepentened, learn the pain of losing my mother. Lastly the most happiest moment is noe someone. Although it short but tat was my most beautiful memory =). After this year i will clear all my debt, To apologise/Thank for those lend me money when i in deep trouble and did not repay in time =) Yingz Hope you are happy after =)

CNY and Valentines

Valentines days and CNY is coming. Every year is the same but this year is a totally big different le. First CNY i cannot celebrate due to some circumstance so no bai nian for me so no red packet too =( Ask few brother come my house eat steamboat bahx =) and for valentines day currently no girls tat i wanted know or wanted to jio. Cause i still cannot forget someone =) so valentines day will be out!!!!
Times past fast, I wondering how have you been? Are you still working at the same place? Are you having fun? When you get drunk did he take care of you? Did you forgive me? Did you happen to think of me? Ha =) hope you enjoy while ur life without me!!! Wish you happy valentines day and CNY =)

I'm back

Feb 11
Recently quite busy go to work as crowd boaster although very sian, but okay lahx at least learn something about diamonds at Goldheart and leehwa jewellery. Notice that diamond is girl bestfriend hahax. To me Diamond is man's enemy =p. I have thinking that my age group ppl shloud be Study or serving National service, But i'm wrong alot of them aready start working. A female stuff i noe told me, usually girl at this age is working coz girl mature faster and had better thinking not like boy, Still wanted to have fun and don't have any commitment at all. Think about it hahax quite true. 21st century le which girl still want to be with a guy without any commitment.

Improve myself

Feb 6 Self improvement
Few days ago go out wif guo wei and brought some book =) hahax. I oso duno y suddenly like to read books, First book i start was regarding about Art of War, and some about body language de book. Now is reading about Human thinking heex. I think the next book i will start is reading about Business and Marketing Bahx. Maybe i really met my down fall and now i decide to come up the peak. I will never let ppl look down on me again. I will do watever thing to make mine come back!!!
Book really teach you good things, Don't forget Life experiance also very important too.

Working Life

Feb 06 tired
This few day is looking for jobs to work. Earn a few bucks and save it, Learn smart and never ever down again. I will make mine return, i don wan to stay for this life is fucking useless and cannot even have a proper 3 meal. Stay at home rot to death buy food oso got problem don even say smoke. Slowly bit by bit, I believe in myself. Good life will come back again.

Feb 3
Chat wif GW for 1hr starting is tok cock, after tat jiu chat about how i feel . Yeah it true heart pain is really very painful and hard to recover. Did i make a mistake to treat girls good? To me girls should be pamper by guys. Maybe my mind set thinking is different from others. As long i think is under my principle den it okay. Everything needs time to cure, i don wan to go back to last time. Hatred!!!!

Drink like hell

Feb 2 High
Rotting all the way till at night. Went to drink wif Vincent and Norman =) at serangoon garen there. Yawn abit sian at start. Until vincent cousin come wah they all damn funny sia drink almost 9Jug of Beer sia. Drinking style is 1 mouth finish 1 cup. Drink until damn high sia. Around 11+ saw squad and sammi go play lan. Sammi say GW tell him i accident inside hospital, COMA cnnt go visit me hahax. GW thx lor. Finish everything is ard 1+ and go home le =) Haiz y am i still cheating myself =(
Think about future and forget about past. cherish the present and remember the memories!!!

I cannot stop it

Feb 1 Unknow feeling
Yawn this few days realli had alot of weird feeling inside my heart. Did not even mention abt her still can think abt her. Even ride bike to town oso can ride until RCD there OMG. walk around town think of going ION eat the tepanyaki kns lor. Go chalet lie on bed oso can remind me of her. Even having banquet oso near her house. Someone ask me do u like to company ur gf go shopping. I laughing all the way sia. But it true i can cheat myself for saying tat i not miss her. But my heart aready betray me hahax =)