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Ronald had change alot seen this 3years from a Fucking bastard change into a good person :) Y? Acutally i oso wan to noe.. I decide to change coz mum really fall sick house really in trouble Papa really jia lat lie down at the bed cnnt do anything becoz of stroke mama had to work for 2 jobs to pay for the hse and papa medical haiz y am i so useless....I keep on working and try to help my family....Until i went for NS....Everything start to change....I cnnt always relying on my family if 1 day they really nt ard wat shld i do....I will be lost of direction so inside NS i don ask for a single cent from mom...I try for saving but still the same i save and spend twice i earn hahax:).

1styear had pass. Father had pass away....although is not a good sign but can see mom burden has lighten, Brother feel more relax and can see they quite happy...Although father did not become a good father after all, left so much trouble for us housing loans and his funeral and he did not buy any insurance at all plus he got no saving it like throwing all the shit to us haiz :( SOB. But nvm seen our family member is without him we live more happily:)

it coming 3rd Year..We tot our life is stable and start to live without stress and pressure of money. My nightmare is juz started!!! Mom leg is swollen and cnnt go to work so i taking my NS leave to take care of her, spend more time wif her until she recover but it not happen like tis it gone worst. Mom cnnt walk at all at she feel very pain and uncomfortable and her tummy is bloated bigger and bigger...I think something not right i call brother tat i wan to send mummy go hospital. So we send.... After few days mom at hospital we got visit her and waiting for the doctor to gif us the medical screening record. Doctor say mommy tummy is bloated maybe is Lump or cancer either 1...If lump once it remove it wont be a problem but had to wait for the tummy screening result. After a week Doctor call us to tok abt mummy stuff say. She having a Utres cancer and the cell is still inside her body and nid to do chemotrephy....My thinking is seen there still hav chance to cure money wise is not a problem...So i will pei mummy go for her therphy..
She starting is doing well until the 3rd times she don feel anything and it in a hard pain i cnnt bear to see she being torture by the illness she hav. At last I tell doctor to ward her and check wat happen!!! Doctor say Chemotrephy did not work on her and if she continue without eating anything and drink anything she will pass away less den 1 month....I think mommy noe abt it so she keep asking me say doctor got say when i die? I duno how to reply her i'm stun!!! i lie to her and say doctor say if stop eat and drink u will pass away by 3months if got still can live for years.
After telling her doctor say mommy shld not stay at hospital coz it expensive and he recommend some medical center like old folk home for mom...Can go home if she want it but better not. So we listen to doctor and transfer her out and she wan to go home we will fetch her....
after 1 month mommy illness become more and more jia lat=( she too weak to tok and i duno wat to say to her oso. But i try to make her more happy and tell her abt wat i'm doing hope she will be alright:) Until the 3rd month is March this year...My birthday is coming and mommy wan me to see i grow up into adult and ask brother to celebrate a big birthday to me and mommy gif me her ring and a necklace with a ring SOB she say take those gold to change it to ur name with a necklace means u r a grow up don nid mommy to take care of u le. But i din do it my birthday wish is wan her to recover for her illness and happily 3 of us stay together.

After 8days of my birthday and I quite a long time din not go visit my mommy due to some problem inside camp. When i decide to go visit her on sat it 4th april 2009 Doctor call say mommy is very weak come and see her... I call brother and uncle all. When i reach i call mommy but she did noe i'm there i keep telling her not to worry i'm here to pei u le...i say kor kor oso coming....after mommy change to a single big room is for relative to visit their loves 1 for the last sight..i feel very very sad..Although mommy cnnt tok to us we noe she holding her last breath to listen to us..Kor kor say to mommy he will take care of me and tell her not to worry...I duno wat to say i onli noe mommy is dying soon i waited for uncle and cousin they all to come to see her last moment.. I waited outside i cnnt bear to see mommy suffer. All the relative reach le.... Aunty say something tat i feel very angry + Sad...I start to cry:( Aunty say ur mommy is very strong 8years ago she having liukemia and she bear all the pain and suffer from the illness to take care of us...say tat time i and kor kor still young so cnnt like tis die.. Now different le Kor kor grow up le but she still cnnt juz go like tis becoz tat time i haven reach 21years old...Ur mommy endure for this moment until now to see u pass 21 birthday... I heard wat she say i cry like fuck and i blame myself y my birthday so early reach Y Y Y???? After mommy pass away i change alot from Bad to good :) i muz redeem mummy de sin and grow happily. I wan her to see from above tat her son is doing good and grow happily enjoy:) Ur unfillia son Ronald Loves u Mother